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Thoughts racing. Eyes burning. Head swimming. What the hell have I done. I almost died today, and it got me thinking. What the hell have I done with my life, how have I contributed. I can’t stop thinking of the past, it’s holding me back. I want to let go and move on with my life, but I don’t know how. So I sit here, drugged up out of my mind while I depressingly try to figure out my life. What the hell Chris, you are better than this. Think nothing of past events, you can’t change them so why try. I don’t even know why I’m thinking about that. I thought I got rid of those thoughts long ago. I don’t even feel that way anymore, so I just wish they would go away. I can’t wait until college, when I can find people who actually share some of the same thoughts as I do.

There comes a time at the end of any era where things must change. Now this isn’t a very interesting fact on its own, unless you include that it’s the end of a cooling cycle in the earth’s climate, and the beginning of a tropical period. Oh, and that the change is the change of genetic structure in every living being on the planet. Now combined, these ideas invoke a lot of though in one. One might wonder what will happen when this cooling cycle ends, and the tropical cycle begins. Will the earth revert back to how it was in the previous tropical cycle? With reptiles being the dominate species, and mammals being tiny; some even as small as field mice? “No, that couldn’t happen,” one might think. But what if it could? What if you aren’t as evolved and cunning as you think you are? In the big scheme of things, to mother nature, you are a tiny insignificant waste of 50,000 years; and it is time to wipe you off the planet. But what if you are as cunning, smart, and advanced as you say you are. What would it be like around us? Reptiles would likely be huge, 20 - 30 feet tall even. Or maybe not. Maybe this time around reptiles will evolve large brains instead of large bodies, and the two sentient races, humans, and humanoid reptilians will battle it out until one or the other dies off. Or maybe the two races will live parallel with one another and continue survival living in harmony. There are so many possibilities it’s hard to discount any of them. That’s what makes science so fascinating. You never know what is going to happen until it actually happens. And although I won’t be around when it happens, I can imagine… Oh boy can I imagine.

Now back to watching Planet Earth. Great documentary.

It’s unfair how insanely fit some people can be without even hardly trying… :/

I thought my friends were above that…

Today I witnessed one of the fallacies of the internet. Don’t share shit that’s stupid. I saw one of those shitty “If this gets 100,000 shares/likes this baby with cancer will get their much needed surgery.” posts today. A friend of mine shared it. Not only is this fucking stupid, it’s really fucking stupid, and really fucking rude, and immoral. Here’s why. What if you were dieing, int he hospital, and you stumbled upon one of these things about you?! Would your first thoughts about this campaign based on lies be: “Oh good, I hope this gets 100,000 likes!” No. It fucking wouldn’t. Your first thought, or at least mine would be: “What the fuck. Why are people spreading lies about my situation? Who the fuck does that?! That’s fucking stupid!” Because it is. It’s fucking stupid, and it’s fucking wrong. So stop doing it!

Hmm, I feel weird. I act like I am allowed to judge peoples actions, really I’m not. I get mad when people tell me they’re doing something sometimes. Not really mad, but annoyed. Maybe it’s just that a lot of things people do are direct contradictions to what they say they do. Why do people do that? “I will never do heroin,” they say. Then 2 months later, you get a call from another friend asking if you can help take the guy to a rehab center for heroin addiction. I mean, that’s just a hypothetical situation, but it still makes sense in other situations. Hypocritical people make no sense to me… But then again, I’m rather hypocritical at times too; so I really can’t say much. :/